429 Part II: How One Number Restored my Faith in the Universe
- Published on: 17 August, 2015
- Last update: 10 August, 2017
All week on Instagram I’ve been sharing tidbits from my trip to Canada to visit Collective Evolution, especially the times I saw my angel number 429 while there. I had to share this one last 429 synchronicity from my trip (along with a personal story about my parents below) because I just couldn’t believe it. I have been getting more personal with my posts lately and I hope you don’t mind. It really helps me to speak openly about things that aren’t exactly related to food/health/herbs/etc… but that are still very much relevant to my spiritual & emotional health. Sharing my experiences with you guys is my therapy and I think you will be able to relate to what I’m about to say.
Anyway, if you’d like the full back story on why this number is so special to me, read my original blog post titled, “How a Higher Power Speaks to me Through the Number 429” (and check out the Instagram hashtag #organicolivia429).
To make a looong story short, this number is my ultimate sign & synchronicity from God/the universe that I am following my path & on the right track. At this point, it has happened far too many times to be coincidence, and those who are around me get pretty freaked out. I saw it everywhere in Canada, and that’s no surprise, because I felt better there than I have in a very long time.
I felt free from the blockages I’ve been posting about. I felt like I met people I had been waiting to meet all my life. It felt like home. The whole trip we joked with our friends about moving there, but deep down I think we were all serious.
As we were driving away from our friend Joe Martino‘s house back to NY, I turned to Nick and said, “I can’t help but feel like we’re meant to stay here. Everything costs less, so we could really save, grow, and build here. Live simply.” Just as I uttered those words, I turned my head to look out the window. This house… number 429… was staring right at me. Right around the corner from Joe, as if to confirm the words that just came out of my mouth.
Since we got home, we’ve had a new lease on life. This trip truly changed us. And we have seriously been considering going back, maybe even moving for part of the year… but who knows what the future will bring.
Tonight I opened up to my parents about 429, which is a big thing for me. It is very hard for me to show them “the real me.” They are my greatest gift and I wouldn’t trade them for the world. At the same time however, they hold a lot of pain and fear, which has spilled over into my own psyche and our relationship as a family. Things have not always been easy.
When I told them the exciting news about 429, Canada, our new friends, and how amazing my life has been since I started “listening to the signs,” they were afraid to be happy for me. I forgive them for that because I was too at one point. They felt it was too good to be true and I should pause to get ready for a let down. They did not trust in the process like I have learned to do. They chose to see the negative and I let it get into my head, which I realize I’ve been doing all my life.
At this point I broke down. And at this point I also realized why 429 means so much to me.
In tears, I said to my dad, “I spent 20 years battling anxiety and depression, because all my life I watched you two do the same. I realized only recently that I had the power to change that by choosing my thoughts and by trusting in the magic of our world, like 429. Every day I make the decision to believe that I am here for a reason, and every day I fight to stay positive.” I refuse to go down their path and lose sight of my purpose, my intuition, and the courage to follow it. I refuse to go back to being afraid.
And then, I realized why 429 means so much to me. When I was depressed and wanted to die, I felt that I had no reason to be here.
I felt that all of my life happened by chance.
That my existence, and my gifts (which I didn’t even realize at the time), mattered no more than the next guy’s.
That my life had no guidance or path, and it didn’t matter if I put good into the world – I would always get bad in return. I had no understanding of the laws of the universe and how what you do always comes back, whether positive or negative. There was no trust. I didn’t know that your rewards come in proportion to your service to others and that I had the power to change my circumstances. I felt hopeless, alone, and afraid that no matter what I did, no one was guiding me because I had NO path or purpose in the first place. I didn’t believe good (or God for that matter) existed.
429 has changed everything. It started popping up to show me people I was meant to be friends with. It started appearing when I was meant to read a book or article that would lead me to the health/truth-seeking path I’m on today.
I would see 429 when I was living out my gifts and helping people, and in turn it helped me to realize what I’m good at. Writing, researching, explaining, and healing.
429 showed up every single time I would watch a video or read books about parasites, and it was there when I created my very own parasite cleanse as well, telling me that this was my calling and my way to help the world. It guides me to what topics I’m meant to write about, and where I’m supposed to travel. When I’m afraid, I see it and it reminds me I am on the right path and don’t need to cry.
429 showed me that there is an intelligence out there listening and guiding me… I just have to trust.
I am not alone. I do not need to be afraid of the world or expect things to go wrong, because I know now that I have a plan and purpose. It has shown me that life has meaning and nothing is coincidence. That no matter where I am, I’m meant to be there at that very moment. The world is not chaos where evil can win. The world is a perfect, constant balance of give and take – a puzzle that you can succeed in when you do the right thing and live from your heart. You get what you give, and when you give fearlessly, you don’t need to pause for the let down.
I know that there is a higher power out there (and within us all) guiding us if we just know how to listen. I am no longer afraid that things are “too good to be true” because I know things can be this good when you are living by your truth and using your gifts.
After tonight, I say this:
Block out the negative voices and the nay-sayers. Sometimes the negative people can be our loved ones, and that’s okay. They mean well and they care for us deeply, but they are stuck in the patterns of their own minds. Release their fear and do not expect the negative. When all of that is quieted, you have the clarity of mind and soul to listen and look for these beautiful signs like my 429. And every time you follow them, your synchronicities will come up more & more often. Let the God/the universe guide you, and trust that you are not alone. Your life matters, your gift matters, and life CAN be this good when you simply trust and believe.